Currently Listening Here's to the Night By Eve 6 see related

Hello to all who still remain in the xanga world...

I know, I've been slipping recently too...haha I've been SOOO busy! Last week I worked at Camp Invention where I was a counselor and basically kept up with like 20 3rd-5th graders...It was definitely an experience, but honestly I cannot WAIT too teach!! It was really awesome working at this camp where I got to observe 5 teachers everyday for an hour...and I LOVE kids!!! SO MUCH!! I CAN'T WAIT until I'm a MOMMY and a TEACHER!!!! O man...you have no idea!! anytime i have even the slightest doubts about being a teacher, it's like God throws me in there and is like "see, this is what you want!" and then I come out of it like itching more than EVER to teach!! Children are precious and incredibly smart! I can not think of a better job than working with them everyday and helping them grow!!

Yesterday was my birthday and it was SO Fabulous!! My friends are so incredible!! How did I get to be so blessed?

I've been feeling kinda like I've been a funk lately and I don't really know why. I guess I just have this feeling that something big and life-changing is going to happen soon...or maybe that's just wishful thinking! maybe I'm just bored. maybe I don 't know what to do with all of my free time...hmm.

Well...I guess thats all for now...haha maybe I'll update again soon-er than last time!

hugs and kisses!~Amanda

Currently Listening Portions for Foxes By Rilo Kiley see related

Hello my loves!!!

It's been oh so long...so I thought I'd let you know I'm still around. My life was pretty much consumed with Recital stuff all month BUT finally that's over!!!

GOOD good news guys, I think my body is finally getiing used to my medicine, I feel better and I FEEL better, like more like myself!! Yay! I go back to the doc next week so we'll see how that goes.

So I had another little breakdown 2 weeks ago...long story short, this mom went all whack on me at work, yelled in my face for something that was of course NOT my fault...and I started crying AT work AFTER I was already depressed that day because I realized I wasn't going to be in recital this year and I can't dance right now...it was probably one of the worst days I had had in awhile...and the next few weeks leading up to recital were not very friendly either...Parents aren't very nice when you tell them they can't have their child's costume until they pay for it and the rest of their tuition...and then of course, the sinners we are had dance on Memorial Day and GOSH you would have thought we killed someone. "You're having dance on Memorial Day? You might as well dance on CHRISTMAS! What are you running here, a boot camp?" I mean seriously, sorry ma'am we're trying to keep your kid from looking like an idiot on stage after not having a dance lesson in two weeks, I mean it's only like ONE hour out of your day...and you know, of course, I was unaware that Memorial Day and Christmas were so equal...

Well anyway, recital went VERY well. I had the pleasure of being backstage and lining up little kids. and except for the one dance where the preschoolers almost didn't make it out for their dance because their ridiculous mothers were being abnoxious while we were trying to line them up (like taking pictures, and pulling kids out of line to put lip gloss on them) , it went smoothly. It was so weird being on the "STAFF" side this time though...I mean I pretty much got to do all the things I did when I was in company...Holly's annual pool party the day before (we had a reunion of the whole company since most everyone had quit after I graduated), I got introduced as part of the staff after the finale (and even got a flower!!) and I got to go to the company dinner at Ninfas after recital on Sunday (except I sat at the STAFF table this year) but it was all good because I have phenomenal friends in the staff, I mean a lot of them go to Baylor, and one of them is even my sorority sister. All in all, I am SOO thankful that God blessed me with that job. I mean even though there were definitely tough times throughout the year, I love Joy's more than anything. I mean I spent 12, well now 13, years there. Joy's is like my second home and it has been too big a part of my life. I am SO blessed to still be able to hang around. HOPEFULLY I can start dancing again soon! I miss it SOOO much right now, it's not even funny. And Nat and Sarah were talking about doing a staff dance next year at recital!! How cool would THAT be???

Well so anyway, now I have the next TWO weeks off!!!! I am SO excited. Yay for summer!!!!! Seriously call me, and we can hang out!! ESPECIALLY next week, because my sis is going to be gone at camp...

I miss my Baylor people SO much!! and I haven't seen Al, Al, or Al in like 2 weeks!! I don't know what's up with that!!! I think I may have to make some phone calls this week to mske sure they're all still alive!

GO MAVS!

Ok, that's all for now...that was a long entry! Love love LOVE my dears!!! maybe pictures next time?? ok, well ciao!

::SIC'EM::
 Amanda

Currently Reading The Da Vinci Code By Dan Brown see related

Hello beautiful friends!!!!

Wow so much has happened since the last time I wrote!!! Umm I guess I'll just start with the bad and work to the good?? Umm so we finally (after many doctor visits) found out what's wrong with me. Turns out I have Rheumatoid Arthritis...and currently a touch of Lupus...but umm, I'm being heavily medicated for both and I go back to the doctor in a month and I should be a LOT better by then and I've already been allowed to go off of my Lupus medicine! and Seriously, I really am ok about it all. It's all part of God's plan and seriously my friends have been AMAZING...I mean words cannot explain. I am SUCH a blessed girl. My friends have been just incredible and I love you all so much!! One of the hardest things about this all has been the fact that I can't dance right now...and haven't been able to for a few months...and I can't dance til the fall. But you know what, it's fine. I'll come back with a renewed respect for dancing and I've realized how much it means to me...it's a tough thing for an 18-year old to hear she has arthritis, but I will be fine, no worries.

So um there was a tornado that hit Waco last week, that was exciting, I just praise the Lord there were no injuries or deaths!!! Like seriously, thats INCREDIBLE!!

So for something exciting:  I'm officially a SOPHOMORE in college now!!! I mean seriously, WHOA. Where on earth did this year go??

This year has been SO interesting. I have grown so much as a person, I look back on myself a year ago and am astounded as to how different I am. I've grown up a LOT, but am still the same in some ways! College is incredible, I faced some hard times this semester especially, but God was there for me the whole way. I met the most amazing people on earth and have already created lifelong friendships! Some old friendships have just grown stronger!  Wow life is good.

This summer is going to be GREAT!!! Please call me and we can hang out!! All I'm doing this summer is chillin and working so seriously, call me!! love love love!!

:::Sic'em:::
Amanda

Currently Listening Speak For Yourself By Imogen Heap, Imogen Heap see related

So xanga is a therapudic tool for me, so I don't mean this to elicit sympathy in any way, I just wanted to write it down and I really don't like depressing entries so I'm going to apologize ahead of time...

SO this past week has been one of the most mentally, physically, and emotionally stressful weeks I've experineced in awhile...to say the least. However it is now over, for the most part, and I have less than a week left of classes!!

SO Last week I was stressing over the HUGE RESEARCH PAPER and the three tests I had this week. Good news, it's all over and done! I only have one more test on Thursday and another paper due on Monday, BUT for the most part, the hard stuff is over with.

SO Thursday I went to the orthopedic doctor. First of all, he decided that I needed to get an MRI on both of my knees because he expects it might be two things and one might require surgery...Then he looked at my REALLY swollen knuckle and decided I may have a cist there, that "should go away, but if not can be surgically removed" Then he asked me about my other symptoms and how I hurt all over all the time and to make a long story short, I had to have another blood test done and I have to go see a Rheumatologist...more to come later I guess...

So I was UBER excited about this weekend and Shamrock and stuff because I was with Columbus Avenue's team!! Well since Friday's games got cancelled due to rain, we ALL had to go Saturday from 8am til 11pm...that's 15 hours people!! and miss fair-skinned Amanda was in the sun that long...needless to say, I have some battle scars. BUT my team was amazing still!!! and I DID have lots of uber fun...however, Sunday, when we were supposed to go BACK out there for 8 more hours, I woke up really sick because I was hurting all over, I was sunburned, I was EXTREMELY sleep deprived and EXTREMELY stressed out! and I pretty much had a breakdown because I still needed to finish my research paper, and I was nervous about getting the results back from my blood test...it was just...NOT a fun day.

SO then yesterday, got my blood test back...apparently their abnormal, in the way that the doctors don't know what to make of them...I may have some kind of virus thats causing an increase in inflamation and therefore making me ache all over?? We're gonna find out though...

SO today I had two tests that basically determine my final grade in the class and when driving back out to Baylor to take one of them, the belt in my car broke, and I actually made it to school without my car dying. This is when God is like "See Amanda, I know this seems bad, but it could've been a lot worse..." So I walk into Religion thinking "Why me?" and almost laugh at all of this crazyness...however, I could barely focus on my test so we'll see how the grade goes for that one. And then I had to have my car towed AGAIN and my dad came and picked me up and when we got to Miller Mazda, they saw us walk in and already knew what car it was because we've taken it there so much...you think thats a bad thing?

The weird thing is, even though all of this seems crappy, and it is, I'm strangely at peace about it...there are SO many other things that are more important than my silly problems...Weird how God operates huh? He's always there, and He comforts us. And I have AMAZING friends who I love so much who are being great and just being there for me and listen to me complain.

I think this entry needs some uplifting pictures, so maybe I'll update tomorrow... I hope everyone has a great rest of the week! Hopefully mine will get better! haha ok well umm adios!!

:::Sic'em:::
Amanda

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*PICTURES!*

This is me and my AWESOME Big, Veronica, at Steppin' Out!!

This is me, my TWIN Hannah, and Courtney at Hannah's Birthday dinner!!

Veronica and me again!! I love this girl!

Me and Alyssa and our ghettofabulous-ness...(Hey we're part of the Gangsta family...)

This is some of my sisters sittin out at Shamrock in the HEAT!

This is fabulous Monike blowing a bubble in the dugout...

AND HERE'S OUR TEAM!!! YAY!!

ok thats enough for now! Have a great week! Ciao!

Sooo the truth is, I SHOULD be working on my research paper right now, seeing as how the 10 page rough draft of a thing is due on Friday and I will have ZERO time to really work on it between now and then, and I will probably hate myself tomorrow, but I had to stop neglecting my poor little ole xanga...

Um lets see, the past few weeks have been interesting. I'm getting mucho sick of school, which is RIDICULOUS because it's not like I'm there that much...alas, only two weeks of classes left!! and then exams and then I chill for a month before I get to go to summer school!

I went to the doctor two weeks ago and basically was immediately referred to an orthopedic doctor, who I am seeing this week, so that will be fun.

I'm really depressed that most of my new friends are going to be LEAVING me this summer!! Seriously, I've met some AMAZING people! Thank GOODNESS most of them are from Texas!! Can we say ROAD TRIP??

Have I mentioned recently how much I love college?? Because I do, it's the best.

Umm this weekend Kappa Delta is having our annual Baseball tourney (Shamrock) to benefit our Philanthropy-Prevent Child Abuse America,  all the frats and other guy teams enter and we basically are assigned to a team and we make them signs, bring them snacks and cheer them on...needless to say, I'm really excited. 

This week is going to be SOOOO busy but SOOO fun!!

I realize most of y'all could care less about pretty much all of this entry, but I would rather do this than work on m research paper...I'm so good at procrastinating, it's scary.

Well I hope y'all all had a most blessed Easter and I hope you have a great week!!!

:::Sic'em:::
 Amanda